Updated: Feb 26
So I've recently starting a Level 7 post grad. Don't get me wrong I've done one before but this one is way out of my comfort zone and has me looking at an area in which I know I have a lot to learn. I am thoroughly enjoying it though and yes, I may well have a 4500 word assessment to submit in 2 weeks but I'll do it.
On the first day I head the term 'Accidental Director' and figured that's me.... Imposter syndrome eat your heart out!!
But here's the thing, in working in teams with other students and through chats with another director, I've came to the realisation that I do some things extremely well and they come naturally to me. More naturally than for others. I'm pretty good at finding solutions. I dig in and find out all the detail and then look to where the gaps are, where things could be improved. I'm very factual by nature.
I worked with a fellow student for 8 minutes (yes it really was that precise as we were on Microsoft Teams) and in that time came up with 6 ideas as to how they could do more of the freelance work they are passionate about; we looked income security, an idea for more permanent work contracts and a couple of other suggestions. They went away with them all written down and said they were definitely going to looking into them.
I very quickly came to the realisation that I sell myself short.
I'm convinced that there are others out there who do things much better than me, when the realisation is that I could be just as good as anyone else. You could call the 'selling myself short' past conditioning from a young age combined with a difficult spell in boarding school (oh yeah I went there) but I have to learn how to challenge that, yet again. Pushing myself out of my comfort zone has raised some doubts. I've sat in class and thought what am I doing here with all these people?
The problem with being so factual is that I, like everyone else, can spend too long focusing on the negative facts instead of looking to the positive ones, looking to what can't be done instead of looking to what is possible.
How many times have I worked with imposter syndrome with my clients and gave them the facts as to why they aren't actually an imposter? Is it a case of life coach, coach thyself??
It's more of a kick up the backside if I'm honest. I know that if it is realistic, then it is also possible and achievable.
I need to remember to be my own cheerleader.
I'm also available as a cheerleader for others. It's another thing I know I'm good at. It's one of the many reasons why I love what I do, especially when you see a client realise their own potential.
Could you be that client if you had a cheerleader to help you get there? Feel free to get in touch if it's something you would like to explore.
(Just to clarify I am the wrong side of 50 and you won't see me doing somersaults with pompoms or wearing a colourful vest, short skirt and long socks. If that is what you're looking for, you're definitely on the wrong website!)